When I decide I want to write something on here, it takes me a couple of days, to a couple of weeks to make sure that my thoughts are completely collected, and even then I know I always don’t get everything right the first time.

It’s a new year, and a new me. Just kidding! I really hate when people say that whenever it’s a new year (don’t you?). After a few days they’re going to be that same person they were just a few days ago, quit fooling yourself. I asked myself what my resolutions were going to be this year. It seems like every year, they’re almost always the same, ie: quit smoking, eat healthier, lose weight, etc. I’ve probably have had the same resolutions every year for the last five or ten years, and well, nothing has really changed for the most part.

Going against the norm, I didn’t make any resolutions this year. Sure, I have a few things at the back of my head that I plan on keeping my focus on, but I don’t want to really commit to a few little goals, when I can commit on simple easy daily goals. What’re my ‘simple daily goals’ you ask? I don’t really know, but some of the first things that come to mind are;

• Be approachable
• Smile more
• Enjoy each morning
• Take a picture of something beautiful
• Accept someone different
• Pay it forward once in awhile

Basically, just be a better person at the end of the day. I’m not an awful person, and I’m not going to write anymore about that. I believe that actions speak louder than words, always.

I do have goals, and aspirations this year, definitely. Last year I told myself I didn’t want to spend most of the year drunk, and I can say that I definitely achieved that goal. This year, I want to get back in touch with my creative side. I want to explore more, photograph more, travel more, and experience more. I’m getting older, the years go by quicker, and amidst of it all, I sometimes forget about the part of me that likes to stop, and enjoy the moment. I get so caught up with work drama, friendship drama, and the speed bumps that life throws at you, that it’s just so irrelevant, and so minimal in this universe. I really need to remember that. Our time is short here, and we all need to make the most of it.

Aside from getting in touch with myself again, I need to really focus on my future this year. This is more foremost, and top priority this year. It’s going to be really tough getting everything in line, and ready, but this is the time to do it. I have been so lazy, and just in ‘party mode’, that I’ve been holding back on going back to school, and getting ready for my future. That fairytale that I’ve always kind of believed in (the one where I’ll happily be a housewife etc etc etc), is something that I pretty much gave up on. I need to stop looking for something, and for someone. I know when the universe wants me to have that, all will be right. I commit to myself this year.

In 5 days, I’ll be back home. I can’t wait to surprise my parents that I’m coming home. It’ll be great to see my friends again, but I’m more excited to spend my time with family again. “Blood is thicker than water.”, my mother always said to me, and when I was younger that didn’t really phase me much. Being so far away, and how my last vacation went, I really realized how true that saying is. With that being said, I’m most excited to see my parents, my brother, my family, my friends, and some of my favorite ‘chill spots’ again. I’m going to take it easy, and not party too hard out there. I want to remember these moments.

I’m running off of maybe 2 hours of sleep, a couple glasses of wine, and a brain and body that aches like it has gone through a tsunami, and back (I don’t know). My brain is a little ‘out there’ at the moment. I originally started this post about collecting my thoughts, but I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve gone back to re-write, add, and edit some of the things on here. With that being said, I hope this all makes sense.

Jay-