Has it been really been since June since I had the time to really sit down and compose my thoughts? Geez.

Where to even begin? Since my depressing year last year, I’ve done a LOT of self discovery. But I think that will have to be a whole different post, because I’m not trying to make this super long tonight.

So what have I been up to? Well, since last June I kind of spiraled. I spent thousands of dollars seeking help from spiritual ”healers” trying to make me feel better. Half the time I listened to their advice but a majority of the time I wanted someone new to listen to my problems. I think thats why I’ve gravitated towards these psychic readers, because I just wanted someone to listen to my bullshit instead of repeating the same thing, and asking a million questions going over and over my situation with my friends.

During that time of self discovery and self sabotage, I discovered Neville Goddard, the man that forever changed my life. But that will be another post to share.

So it’s 2022, I am thriving with this new mindset. Earlier this year I finally had the chance to visit Mexico! Cancun to Tulum to be more specific. It was one of the best trips I’ve ever got to do with my friends. It was Ashley’s bachelorette weekend that we celebrated, and despite me having a minor breakdown, it was an amazing trip. For me, I really enjoyed this game we all played amongst each other in one of the most fine dining places in the jungle. We basically sat around this table and really talked about deep topics amongst each other, and I think it made me feel closer to some people I never really gave much thought about our friendship.

Definitely a trip for the books, and I cannot wait to visit again soon.

On to other things,…

Sometimes I think this universe truly dislikes me, for what, I’m not sure. I recently met someone shortly after Tulum, and after about a week of texting and getting to know each other, we finally had the chance to meet. I can only speak for myself, but the chemistry and banter that came naturally is something I’ve never experienced with someone. So over-thinking Jay develops feels, and then the universe comes down and says, ”he’s just looking for friendship after an almost decade long relationship that ended a few months ago.” Thanks universe, I can only handle so much you know. But enough about guys, because I’m just over trying to date currently.

One thing I’m truly focused on this year is my finances, mental health, and truly just living in the moment. I’ve been at my current place of employment for over a decade now, and with the COVID changing pretty much everything in business, I think it’s time for me to look for more job security and some place that I can utilize my skills and talents for a better opportunity. So, the guy I was hitting it off with before ultimately friend-zoning me talked about his job, and I thought to myself that it would be a pretty good change for me. He interviewed me and now I’m waiting on my background check to clear to make everything official. For the few viewers I have on here, I ask that you keep your fingers crossed for everything to happen smoothly, thank you.

In all honesty, I’m scared. I’m scared of making such a huge change in my life, but life isn’t supposed to be comfortable if you want to grow. I’ve been so complacent for so long, It’s time to see what else is out there and really disrupt my life for a little bit for a chance to really turn things around. This I believe is going to be the case. My current workplace just isn’t fun anymore. So much petty drama on the daily, and the sales goals are just unreasonable. I feel like I’m working for nothing, no reward. Just a paycheck every two weeks, with no sense of accomplishment.

Talk soon,
Jay