I’ve decided to spend my final nights here at home and with my family. It has been so nice seeing a lot of my old co-workers, and some of my best friends. But, it’s been even better seeing my family, and how really great they’re doing. For the first time in a long time, I’ve felt something that I haven’t felt in a long time just being around them. It’s been such an amazing trip. 100x better than when I was here last year too visit. I feel rejuvenated, motivated, and happy too get back on track with work, and the routine that I’ve come accustomed too.

I originally left California to break out of a normal routine, but I’ve realized that I’m the type of person that always needs to be doing something. I can’t stand being idle. It drives me insane. It’s still January, and I have the rest of the year to work on myself, and start making big changes. I have this new sense of motivation, and enlightenment that I didn’t have before I came here. It’s weird to explain, and coming from me, a lot of the things don’t make sense, but they kind of just do for me.

I told myself last year that 2013 is going to be the year that I focus on myself. I’m 25, and it’s time that I actually start focusing on the next part of becoming a better adult. Living in Wisconsin, it’s so hard to not want to drink, because it’s the only thing you really do out there, especially now. I need to really quit doing it so often. I’m going to hold it to myself to not drink until Summer. I need to really start saving my money, and focusing on my health. I need a change, but it’s something that isn’t going to happen overnight again. I need to stay focused, and always keep that in the back of my head. It’ll happen again, but I need to save, be diligent, and get myself back on track with where I need to be headed in life.

I was at a good place when I left for vacation, but I’m coming back with new aspirations, goals, and a new game plan. I’m so excited for this year to take off, and it’s just getting started. I need to maintain this positive outlook that I have, and if it means disconnecting myself with others, than so be it. I have absolutely no time to surround myself with individuals that are just going to hold me back. I’m going to be selfish this year. I have to be, or I’ll continue to be in this rut that I’ve been stuck in forever.

Jay-