It’s 3am, and I’m wide awake. I’m not complaining though, because after last nights nightmare, not to mention my dreams have been pretty intense lately too, I’m not upset that I’m wide awake. It’s too quiet though, I haven’t heard a car drive by in awhile, not a single bush rattle, nothing. Just a few song lyrics that keep repeating themselves over and over in my head, amongst other thoughts floating around in there. I am not going to sugar coat this blog, but I’m sad. I thought I was stronger than this, and thought I was doing okay and then I find myself weeping. I’m pathetic right now, and I wish my good friends would slap me, hard, right now.

I want to go on a drive, no destination in mind, just to go clear my head. Maybe find a cute spot to watch the sunrise in the morning? I used to do things like that. I’m not sure why I haven’t in awhile..? This sounds like an adventure.