I’m exhausted.

Today was probably one of the most stressful days ever. I’m sad, confused, and a bunch of other random feelings that totally suck (this blog is starting to sound like a teenage girl in high school now, eh?!). My emotions have felt like a roller coaster today, and to the point where I felt like I was about to throw up. I’m sad I couldn’t get a solid answer from someone. I’m left here feeling helpless, confused, and worse of all, anxious. I don’t even know what to think at this point, or where to go. I’m trying so hard to make this work, but I’m not quite sure if anything will be there anymore. I’m so sad at the thought of next week not happening. I’ve been looking forward to it since we’ve set it up, but I have doubts that this adventure will even happen. I’m depressed, and I hate to admit it. I couldn’t even work today, my mind was elsewhere. I don’t ever get like this, ever. I am usually good at protecting myself from reaching this point, but I let my guard down, and now I’m wondering if that was a good idea. I don’t want to assume anything right now until I hear from this individual.

I don’t even know what else to write. I’m sure this post doesn’t make sense.

I hate these feelings. I hate these emotions, so much.