Why do they make it so hard to recover from a mistake? Mistakes should be learning experiences. Unfortunately, they’re not learning experiences for a lot of people, but for the few that choose to make them opportunities, it’s so hard to get back on track sometimes. I’ve been lucky so far, I’ll give myself that. I’ve achieved a lot, I’ve been a strong person so far, but I’m not built like a brick house. Their is only so much I can take, and sometimes I do feel like giving up. Yes, I’ve made a mistake when I was younger, but I don’t think that should hinder my future, and unfortunately it is. I think it would be easier to cope with this situation if I was back home, but I’m not. I’m in Milwaukee, and I don’t really have anyone that I can really open up to about my situation. Sure, I have my best friend on speed dial, and on Skype, but sometimes that doesn’t cut it. At the end of the conversation, I’m back to being alone, with no sense of peace of mind. I never used to be like this, I used to enjoy being alone, and being surrounded with silence. I think having a taste of the real world has really proven to be a real struggle for me, mentally. I wasn’t able to move in with Mark. I can completely understand the reasoning. I kind of figured it wasn’t going to workout, so I’m not all that surprised, just disappointed. What’s even more disappointing is that I was under the impression I was going to be able to move in with another friend of mine like we had already planned before, but that wasn’t the case either. I do not think it was it was a fair decision on her behalf, and I do not understand it at all. I can understand a big cooperation who does not know me deny me, but to be shot down by a friend is what really disappoints me. Rebecca said it best when she said that I would be better off without her, and I completely agree. I am not here to talk ill on the person, I just do not think the reasons provided were fair. I just hate not having a chance to prove myself. I have a lot to think about in the upcoming weeks. I hate thinking too much because I get overwhelmed. I am so glad to have Rebecca in my life to help me stay focused, and on track of what I need to do. I’m leaving for California on Friday, and I’m going to try and enjoy this trip. It will be hard because in the back of my head, I will be worried about this situation. It’s haunting, and I just wish something for once would go my way. I feel like the universe is working against me. This is another mountain that I will proudly overcome, even if I have to do it alone. I will overcome.