This is by far my favorite picture that I’ve taken of you. It’s from a video, a mere second or two later you jump into the lake. It makes me smile knowing I was able to capture this beautiful moment. You were in the zone, and nothing could stop you. Like you said, pure bliss.

I’m sitting here reminiscing when we first met. I miss when you would text me in the morning about something going on at work, I knew that I was on your mind. I miss when you’d ask me how my day was going at work. It’s rare for these conversations anymore. I feel a distance growing between us, and I really hate it. I’m trying to not think too much into it, like you always say, but it just feels different, and I wish you would let me know where this is going. I miss how cute you’d be to me, it felt really special.

I keep telling myself that you’re not into me anymore, but the other night you said you still were. I hate the feeling of insecurity in all this. I’m going to test myself today. I want to see if you’ll come in contact with me today. It’s going to be hard, but I want to feel something. I want to feel that I’m on your mind still. I wish you’d open up to me, I’m not who you think I am. You can trust me, and I really wish you would. I’m on the verge of just deactivating everything for awhile. It makes me sad when you tweet lyrics off Taylor’s new song. I can’t help but feel like you’re directing those to me. I’m trying here, and I wish you could see that.

I went on a booze cruise last night with friends. It felt good to be able to go out, but at the same time it was a little scary too. I haven’t been out with friends in awhile since I’ve met you. All I could think about was how I wish you were there with me too. I kept myself composed and collected on the boat, but the entire time I just wanted you to be there. It was so cute, and the weather was perfect. I know you would’ve enjoyed the view. I hope someday we can make this happen.