WordPress, It’s been awhile. I’ve wanted to write, but more than often I’ve suffered from a severe case of writers block. My thoughts are there, but I can’t form them into the right words. It’s 1:22 am, and it’s always during these late hours where my brain just seems to flow with collected thoughts. I should’ve been born as some kind of nocturnal animal or something, I always operate better at night. Anyway!

On my last day of being in Wisconsin, it was really great being able to say goodbye to some of the friends that I’ve made. Goodbyes aren’t my strongest point, but I get through them by telling myself that our lives will cross paths again. I’m really disappointed I didn’t stop for any cheese curds, it’s a shame that I can only have something like that out there. I keep telling myself that if I could live without In-N-Out for two years, I’ll be okay. As I was leaving, the view of the city in my rear view mirror kept getting smaller and smaller, it was so surreal. The place that I had lived and grown up for the last two years was becoming a part of my past quicker than I thought; a reminder that time doesn’t slow down for anyone. Milwaukee is a special place to me, and I can truly appreciate some of the things that city has to offer.

I hit the road, and didn’t look back. The drive took around 25-28 hours total, which wasn’t so bad. During that time I really had a chance to clear my thoughts, get focused, and most importantly – enjoy the ride home with a peace of mind. Driving across the country is an adventure in itself that I’d recommend to anyone that enjoys seeing what the world has to offer. I made it a point to drive through Iowa and Nebraska as quickly as possible. It’s nothing but flat land, and well, that’s about it. Colorado was beautiful as ever, such a lovely state. It’s a shame that I didn’t plan accordingly because driving through the canyons of Utah was what I was looking forward to most. I can’t put into words how beautiful that drive is, just don’t do it at night like I did. When I entered California, I became so anxious to just hurry up and get home. I won’t forget the feeling of satisfaction when I was descending from the 15 freeway coming from Victorville; I finally made it back.

It’s been really amazing being back home with my family. It’s so different from the last time I was here, in such a good loving way. In ways it feels like I never left, and sometimes it feels like I’ve been gone a decade. I’ve been too so many casinos with them in the last couple months, I think It’s becoming an addiction. It’s been fun hanging out with them again, oddly enough. I can see why my mother is at one almost every night. Watching her play is probably one of the funniest and cutest things ever, I can see our similarities more so now, than before. I’m just glad that I was able to recognize that I haven’t been the best towards them the last few years, and now I have the opportunity to make them proud about something.

I started back at Nordstrom about a couple of weeks ago. It’s been fun, and a extremely overwhelming at times. It’s so much to learn, but everyday gets a little easier. It’s different from anything that I’ve done before. I welcome the challenge of a new experience, as tough as it can be at times, I remind myself that I excel in anything that I do, and I’ll be just fine. I’m glad to be back at work doing something productive again. The last couple of months being unemployed was just awful, I could never live like that, unless I won the lottery or something.

Slowly, but surely things are starting to look like normal again. I’m happy where I’m at, and the future is becoming clearer by the day. I have to stay focused, and remain around those that only support and motivate me. No exceptions.

Jay-